I Continue to Hope–Radio Rumination

I Continue to Hope–Radio Rumination


In this radio rumination, I explore the importance of hope even when (especially when) evil is deceiving the world. Topics discussed include the American Library Association removing the “Intellectual Freedom” paragraph from its professional ethics page, The USS Liberty, Anti-lockdown Pastor Greg Locke of Tennessee, Biden’s enforcement of the needle on federal employees, and a prayer from Michael Rectenwald. (Text Below)

This episode originally aired Sunday, August 1st, 2021. Catch Freedom Loves Company LIVE, Sundays, 6-8 pm Mountain, 8-10 pm Eastern, Midnight to 2 am GMT. Revolution.Radio Studio B.


Continue to Hope

August 1, 2021

I will continue to hope because it is not about my limited vision. I trust that the world was created by a benign cosmic intelligence that I call God. If God so wills that humans will be destroyed by satanic forces, then that is what will happen. If God decides on a different outcome then that will happen.

I don’t feel so serene, however. I wrote this today on my Facebook page:

“This descent into the reset will not be completed quickly. It may be like a degenerative disease. Each day we lose more freedoms and experience more pain until we are motionless on our backs. But excruciatingly, the decline lasts for years. We have to get used to finding ways to live and find joy in its midst. We can fight the powers. That will provide some meaning. We can hope for a cure. But the reality is that this disease is terminal and progressive, and salvation is in our capacity to endure to the end.

I will likely argue my existence and the unfairness of it all on these platforms for awhile longer until I realize (like grief) that no one, especially Meaning itself (God, the Universe, whatever) is interested in my need. When I finally lose that desire for what I do and say “to matter” in some objective sense, I can live with this progressive nightmare not as a nightmare but just a real crappy dream with perhaps some dark humor to lighten the load. Cannabis might be a helpful analgesic.

Change my mind, please.”

Then I attended church. It is a Spirit-centered church. I have been attending for over a year. The church never gave in to the lockdowns and other nonsense. This church has provided much needed spiritual strength. The preacher said today, “God’s Word works. It just doesn’t happen in a day. It may take a while.”

You need to attend church. I am not talking about attending a Covid Cult church, if they are even worshiping at all without masking and reporting you to the government. I am talking about a real church that does not worship fear and deception. But a church that preaches the gospel of freedom. Galatians 5:1:

“It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.”

I have not given up hope yet that we may be saved from this reset. I just don’t see how it will happen. Australia is under military lockdown. The UK is hopeless. Germany has outlawed protests and is enforcing this tyranny. The rhetoric in the mainstream propaganda outlets is extreme. They are inciting hatred against those are who not vaccinated. Constant lying. Shameless.

Last June, June 2020, I wrote this on my website:

If you do not want a vaccine (and you do not), you will need to connect with others like you. Protect each other. Support each other. Those who refuse the vaccine will have lives very difficult to live if not impossible without alternative ways to find food, shelter, travel, employment, and basic health care. Nothing the authorities and the media say is real. They are your enemy. Find your friends.

COVID is not about a killer virus. it is about a killer vaccine. Refuse.”

Even as I wrote it myself last June 2020, I wondered if I might be exaggerating. But this is coming true now. The mainstream propaganda is insisting that employers have the right to force vaccination or fire you. This is happening. Just as the “conspiracy theorists” said it would.

I wrote this on another pastor’s page after hearing how loving others means taking the needle. I wrote:

Yesterday, I discovered that the American Library Association changed its statement of professional ethics, removing the language of “intellectual freedom” which has been the foundation of library ethics since 1939. This is big. Libraries. Librarians. How many are there? They are everywhere. They have been a bulwark against censorship, at least they used to be. Now they only care about stopping what they call “misinformation” and pushing what they call “authoritative sources.”

Before June 29, 2021, just last month, intellectual freedom was the centerpiece of library ethics. It was on the American Library Association’s website. I have linked to it and quoted it many times. In fact, I quoted it in a letter to a local newspaper. “Intellectual Freedom” is the cornerstone of library ethics. I want you to get what I am saying. This is the cornerstone, the foundation of ethical behavior for libraries and for library professionals. Here is the definition of Intellectual Freedom, what once was the cornerstone of library ethics:

“Intellectual freedom can exist only where two essential conditions are met: first, that all individuals have the right to hold any belief on any subject and to convey their ideas in any form they deem appropriate, and second, that society makes an equal commitment to the right of unrestricted access to information and ideas regardless of the communication medium used, the content of work, and the viewpoints of both the author and the receiver of information.” – Intellectual Freedom Manual, 7th edition“

This means that libraries and librarians do not exist to tell you what is good information and what is misinformation. They exist to protect people’s fundamental right to freedom of opinion and to express that opinion and to access information. It is foundational. It is the Bible for librarians. Now, as of June 29, 2021, intellectual freedom no longer exists on its webpage as a guiding principle.

It is as if Christians just ripped out of their Bibles the Gospel of John. Or if the first amendment to the constitution was removed. It is that central.

What does this mean? It means you cannot trust libraries or librarians any longer. They cannot be trusted to protect your privacy. They cannot be trusted to give you access to the information you want and need.

This is the result of the cult, the covidian cult, the covid cult. This satanic cult has infiltrated all of our institutions. Publishing, media, education, religion, medicine, politics. Everything has been taken over by these globalist cultists. As I see it, the primary attack is on the individual’s right to information and to express one’s own opinion.

If there is one thing I can name that is the fundamental loss in this attack on humanity, it is humanity’s loss of intellectual freedom, which the library used to protect. It does so no longer. Let me read it again; it is so critical.

“Intellectual freedom can exist only where two essential conditions are met: first, that all individuals have the right to hold any belief on any subject and to convey their ideas in any form they deem appropriate, and second, that society makes an equal commitment to the right of unrestricted access to information and ideas regardless of the communication medium used, the content of work, and the viewpoints of both the author and the receiver of information.” – Intellectual Freedom Manual, 7th edition“

Personally, I will not give up intellectual freedom. I will exercise it. I will exercise my fundamental rights of speech, worship, assembly, bodily autonomy, informed consent. I will not surrender that. This is it. This is the line in the sand. This the difference between slavery and freedom.

Institution after institution after institution has willingly surrendered this from fear. Fear coupled with deception.

Is it any wonder that I am depressed? Is it any wonder that I am in a stupor? Is it any wonder that I have given up hope on humanity ever waking up? If you don’t defend this, you are nothing. You are worth no more than a lab rat. That is what you are. If you do not defend intellectual freedom and act from it every day, in every moment, you are as good as enslaved already.

My only hope is supernatural intervention. I am not discounting that by any means. In fact, that is all that has a hope of saving us, in my opinion. If I were God, thank God I am not, but if I were God, I would say to hell with humanity. They are so stupid and worthless that they cannot even defend their God-given rights that I, Lord have given them! They are not worth saving.

As I said, it is good that I am not God. I don’t have the patience and long-suffering that God has. I also don’t have anything that God has, including wisdom and understanding. God sees where I do not. I hope God does exist and God will intervene against these globalist elites who will destroy the human race. My hope in humanity by itself is gone.

Among many agendas, depopulation is at the top of the list. Depriving us of individuality is the method. Turning us into obedient, compliant slaves is the process. Masking, divide and conquer, gaslighting, censoring, injecting us with poisons, fear, fear, fear of media-created illnesses are just some of the ways we are being destroyed.

I am grateful for some people who are awake. I am hoping that there are more people becoming aware and awake than I see. But let us be realistic. The enemy has all the weapons. The primary weapon is psychology.

Yet, I also know that a small minority can change the world.

I know that God has acted in history.

I know that the USS Liberty did not sink on June 8th, 1967, despite all the firepower of Israel and the Traitor-In-Chief, Lyndon Baines Johnson’s best efforts. Israel tried to sink it and kill every American sailor aboard, but Israel was unable to do so.

I know that when we focus our mind and spirit on what is true, good, and beautiful, when we are connected with Goodness, with God, with eternal Consciousness, that miracles can happen.    

We need miracles now.

Shout out to Pastor Greg Locke of Global Vision Bible Church in Mount Juliet, Tennessee. He has been pilloried by the mainstream propaganda outlets for his ministry. He is resisting the lockdowns. He is done with the masking and all of that nonsense. The propaganda outlets want to make it about him not welcoming people with masks. Oh, how unchristian, how exclusive. Whatever. That isn’t what he is talking about.

This is from the fake news propaganda outlet, The Tennessean, in Nashville:

I think my comment was shadow-banned as I received no replies, not even laughing emojis. I wrote the same thing twice on two different articles in the paper’s facebook page. No response.

Kudos to Pastor Greg Lock. We need more like him. This covidian scam is a satanic cult. I will say it again, this covidian scam is a satanic cult.

The church may be our last hope. The library is worthless. That isn’t to say there may be a librarian out there who still believes and acts upon “intellectual freedom” but as an institution, the library is now a vehicle for the great reset.

My denomination, the Presbyterian Church USA, of which I am a pastor, has nearly completely given itself over to this satanic cult. It is heartbreaking to see old clergy friends promoting the needle and losing all critical faculties. Again, there may be pastors who have not sold their souls to the covidian cult, but if so, now would be the time to speak out. 

We do not have much time before we are stripped of agency to fight.

The larger church still has hope. There are congregations, including the one I attend, as well as Chuck Baldwin’s church, Liberty Fellowship in Kalispell, Montana, and Henry Hildebrandt’s church in Ontario, Canada, that resist this cult. The church may be our last hope.  Do catch my interviews with Dr. Annie Bukacek, who attends Liberty Fellowship in Kalispell, Montana and with Henry Hildebrandt of the Church of God in Aylmer, Ontario. They are warriors.

The enemy is trying to inject college students and athletes with their poison based on a fake pandemic. We have to fight this with everything we have. I am going to do that. Are you with me?

Yeah, I am depressed. It is because I see what is happening. But I am not giving up. I am not going to let these oligarchs kill us and enslave those they don’t kill without a fight. I fight on every platform I can. This is an information war. They use information to deceive and destroy us. We have to use information to show that there are voices who are being censored who tell a very different story. They will have to physically kill me. I am not alone. Are you with me?

This is war. We have to fight.

Michael Rectenwald who was on my program a couple of weeks ago wrote this yesterday.

“Crime is vastly rewarded while honesty is chained and bound.

Thieves and murderers run rampant while imprisoning the innocent.

The good are afflicted with a thousand maladies, while the evil laugh and mock them with glee.

The world is a carnival of evil, a grotesquerie of sickness, perversion, and wickedness.

Hear, Oh Lord, my prayers. Rescue us from the tyrants, the liars, the thieves in the night.

And those who would deny You, let them not make a mockery of our sorrow and pain.

Save me from the snares of this sinful place, and spare me for your kingdom.


We are face to face with evil. Nothing you are doing is more important than being informed about our situation, and once informed acting, however you can, to resist this evil.

This past week, Puppet Biden announced injections will be required for all federal workers. My response:

“When Biden announces needle mandates for federal employees, and other corporations and institutions do the same, I know that affects people reading this. People are worried and afraid. And parents! How can children be protected from these monsters? These are impossible decisions. They pluck us up piece by piece. I don’t have the answer. I don’t pretend to have one. I pray for strength for you. I pray for whatever you need. I pray for all of us. The answer keeps coming back:

“Trust…..Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for Thou art with me.”

Do what you need to do to connect with God. You can’t think your way out of this. No calculation works. No one knows what to do. If they did, then this would not be happening. We have to admit that we need the protection of Love. Allow Love to guide.

“The one who endures to the end will be saved.”

Matthew 24:13”

Why do people believe these falsehoods? 

The primary reason is that they promulgated 24/7. It is difficult to get away from the lies, but you can. Turn off the TV. Shun the media propaganda. Think. Think this through.

I will close with this…

Many people don’t really believe this nonsense or that they will get covid. Obviously, some do. But many people just want the lockdowns and the mandates to end, or at least end for them. So they obey. They obey thinking that the oligarchs will go easier on them. Here is the truth:

The #covidcult makes people believe that they will be spared the horrors of the police state if they obey. Nope. Enslavement is for everyone.

Everyone goes down. No matter how obedient you are, you will still be enslaved like every one else. The only way out of this is to refuse to comply.

Refuse to comply.

Refuse to comply.

A Free Mind, Love, and Good Tunes

I thought I would post a sermon. Here is the audio. Sermon starts at 9:12.

I think our descendants will regard David Ray Griffin as the most important theologian of the early 21st century. Any theologian who tells the truth about the stuff that really matters gets my ear regarding religion. Damn if he isn’t good at that, too.

My mind is changing again.

Last week in her interview of me, Pam Gross, asked me about a number of things, and one topic we mentioned but didn’t elaborate upon was my view on God. I don’t like to talk about myself, as if I am the topic, but these questions arise about what the minister believes. I always try to deflect these questions. Who cares what I believe? It is my business. The question for you is what do you believe? Churches have a tendency to make the minister the “designated believer.” If the minister has his or her beliefs right, then everything is OK. If not, then things are not OK.

So when I first came to Southminster, the Friendly Atheist blog published an essay I wrote and titled it, “I’m a Presbyterian Minister Who Doesn’t Believe in God,” many people thought, “That can’t be OK.” Those who read past the title saw within the article itself that I wrote I didn’t believe in a supernatural God. You should spell that word Gawd G-A-W-D.

G-A-W-D was coined by David Ray Griffin in his book, God Exists But Gawd Does Not: From Evil to New Atheism to Fine Tuning. (review by Kevin Barrett). GAWD is the supernatural being that is the subject of most religious creeds. GAWD created the world from nothing, intervenes in the natural order of things, rewards and punishes, and so forth. This is the GAWD that I wrote is the product of myth-making.

I don’t find the existence of GAWD to be particularly persuasive. I think the new atheists like Dan Dennett and Richard Dawkins are right to poke holes in that Gawd. But does that mean that God G-O-D doesn’t exist at all? And what is at stake here either way?

When I first went to seminary, as part of the requirements for admission, I had to write an essay about my beliefs and questions. I wrote in the essay something along the lines of, “Is the universe meaningful?” Is the universe (and are humans) the products of randomness and natural law alone? The things that humans value, love, wisdom, good tunes, are they only things we care about or does the universe itself care about those things, too?

Martin Luther King said a number of times in his sermons and speeches a phrase that is often attributed to him but goes back earlier. The phrase is, “The arc of the moral universe is long but it bends toward justice.” Unitarian minister, Theodore Parker, should be credited with that thought, though. In 1853 he said this in a sermon, titled “Of Justice and The Conscience:”

Look at the facts of the world. You see a continual and progressive triumph of the right. I do not pretend to understand the moral universe, the arc is a long one, my eye reaches but little ways. I cannot calculate the curve and complete the figure by the experience of sight; I can divine it by conscience. But from what I see I am sure it bends towards justice.

This question has been with me throughout my entire ministry, and I have never let it go. Are Parker and King right? Does the arc of the moral universe bend toward justice or is that just something humans like to think?

So, in seminary, I was introduced to the post-modernists. I still don’t know what the word, post-modern, means, but for my purpose here, this is how I used it. It meant that all of these things that humans care about such as love and justice and even God, didn’t arrive until humans arrived. The universe is like a bus. It stops and starts. Picks people up. Drops people off. The bus has no intelligence, no concern for the lives of the people it carries. The love and justice that the humans on the bus exhibit is the result of human interaction. They care about love and justice. The bus doesn’t. I wrote a poem about it, “Riding the Bus with Jesus.” Jesus is the human interaction, not the bus. “Indifference is the law of the universe,” I wrote.

I would call this my post-modern phase. Language about God, about meaning, love, justice, is a human construct. It is an attempt at making meaning of an essentially meaningless universe. All the attempts to insert GAWD into this universe really have not been persuasive to me. The thing is, I talk about that. For many people, that is not OK. I on the other hand, think it is OK. Not only OK, but I think important and necessary for a free mind.

Our minds are not free if they don’t take us where our doubts take us. They are not free if we allow others to set the boundaries of what we can and cannot explore. We should search for what we think is true even if doing so challenges conventional wisdom.

I defend the way I think and the things I believe or do not believe because I come about them honestly and we all should have the freedom and encouragement to do the same. Hearing the views and the thoughts of those that are different from ours, challenging to us, can only make us wiser. That is how we learn. That is how we grow. That is what I do in my ministry. I don’t think being a minister is about rigidly sticking to a set of creedal statements about GAWD. I think being a minister is about challenging those statements and creating new statements that reflect the actual journey we are taking.

All that said, I find myself changing again. Moving not back to the GAWD of creed but answering affirmatively, even if tentatively the question, “Is there a GOD of meaning within the universe itself?” Yes. Is the love Paul writes about in I Corinthians 13 only a human expression, a human invention, or does it reflect something within the fabric of the universe itself? I am leaning toward the latter.

The only thing I really care about is the world my granddaughter, Pippa, will inherit. What are we leaving? What are we doing about it now? I personally find those questions to be very hard, discouraging, even despairing. I don’t back away from the via negativa, to use Matthew Fox’s phrase for the dark path. I don’t shy away from looking at the trajectories we are on in regards to our future. I don’t back away from the truths about ourselves and about our nation that are hard to take. I don’t think church is about hiding from that.

However, it is hard for me to muster up enough hope to be an honorable ancestor by myself. It isn’t enough, I am coming to realize, to have love and justice and God be human constructs in an otherwise meaningless, indifferent universe. I need to know that the universe in some sense cares that we do this well. The universe is somehow cheering us on. Love, morality, truth, goodness are not quirks of human evolution, but built within the fabric of the universe itself. I am starting possibly to embrace that again. I am changing. Perhaps I can embrace what Martin Luther King, Jr. and Theodore Parker said that “the arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends toward justice.”

These changes that I experience in my reflections on GAWD and GOD do not come from a vacuum, from me sitting on a rock thinking day and night. They come from my life experience and my interactions. They come from a delight in observing the stars to learning about evolution to witnessing disease and death, and grief, and violence, and forgiveness and none of these are abstractions; they are flesh and blood experiences of life. They come from losing my son. They come from having a granddaughter. They come from lies, war and stupidity. They come from courageous peacemakers. They come from learning about species extinction. They come from learning about the vastness and the creativity of life.

These thoughts, beliefs, hopes, dreams, ideas are ours. We all have them. We should never have to be made to feel guilty or wrong or bad for having whatever thoughts we have about life and about God. We have earned them. We need to be able to go to whatever place we need to go even if it is a walk through the valley of the shadow of death. Even if it is a long journey of doubt. Sometimes we need to go there. Sometimes we need to go through it to glimpse a light on the other end.

What I am trying to say this morning is don’t settle for a sound bite. Don’t settle for an evaluation of someone based on a sentence or phrase or label. We are all far more complicated than that. We don’t stay the same. It is OK to change. We don’t have to make others believe or not believe like we do. Instead, I prefer to give people space to make their own honest discoveries.

This is what I think Paul was talking about in this beautiful passage from I Corinthians about love. This translation is due in large part to Art Dewey, who has the ear of a poet.

love takes its time
makes itself good and useful
love doesn’t envy
it doesn’t boast
it doesn’t bluster

it doesn’t make a scene
it doesn’t look after its own interests
it doesn’t throw fits
it doesn’t dwell on the negative
it takes no pleasure in injustice
but is delighted by the truth

love upholds everything
trusts in everything
hopes for everything
endures everything

love never falls way

That Love, I am coming to trust now, is the very fabric of the universe. Love is pulling, enticing, encouraging all of us to become more alive than we were yesterday, and as Love upholds, trusts, and endures, Love pulls us to be even more alive tomorrow.


Apocalypse Now

I suspect that after this post gets sent, the number of people who follow me via email (currently 2174–see sidebar) will decrease substantially. The Progressive Spirit radio show has ended and I am taking a different turn in regards to the things that I view as important and worthy of my time and hopefully yours. Yet I hope you will be curious enough to stay with me and pass this blog on to others.

We are in an apocalyptic time. Apocalypse means revelation. This is a time of revealing, of making manifest that which has been shrouded. Apocalypse in the popular sense means massive destruction. This time could be that as well especially if we decide as a human species to ignore the revelatory aspect of apocalypse.

But I am hopeful because I believe in God (not Gawd) to use David Ray Griffin’s distinction. To believe in God means to believe that morality and purpose are more than human social constructs. Morality and purpose are as real as atoms and supernovas, beetles and Bohemians. The very fabric of the universe is moral and we are a part of it, participating in it, being guided by and, to a degree participating, in its unfolding.

That belief is important, according to Griffin, because without it, without a belief and hope that the universe in some way “cares” we will not be able to face the task before us that is immense beyond measure. That task has come to us in the form of Global Warming or Climate Catastrophe. Monumental in itself, our situation is far worse than a problem to solve. Our destruction (apocalypse in the popular sense of the word) is enabled by the evil in high places that temporarily profits by our impending demise. The work of this evil is to shroud our true situation. Evil works in darkness as our wisdom traditions remind us. None of our institutions is capable of dismantling this evil or even capable of naming it. All of the institutions associated with education, religion, politics, commerce, justice, military, and media are held by the grip of this evil, unable to see in the darkness their own complicity.

The only thing that can save us is apocalypse in the precise meaning of that word, which is revelation. We need an unveiling, a de-shrouding, an unfolding, and an awakening. This is not simply an intellectual activity. It is a deeply spiritual event. I use the word ‘event’ because apocalypse is an event in which we participate. This event is happening now. This time is apocalypse now.

All around us the shroud of evil is tearing. Glimpses of light are piercing it. These glimpses are truth-revealing glimpses into the reality of our imprisonment. What exactly happened on September 11th, 2001 is a question related to this apocalypse. We know that we have been deceived but at the same time we are not allowed to know. I am not supposed to be writing about this. You are not supposed to be reading it. It is taboo. Yet here you are. You are still with me. The apocalypse event unfolds as more and more people see what they are not allowed to see, say what they are not allowed to say, and do what they are not allowed to do. Apocalypse now is rendering the taboo powerless. I need not convince you of anything. You already know it. I don’t need to show you Building 7. You know the official myth is a sham. You only need to trust what you know. Find your heart (courage) and act. When you are ready, you will.

Arbaeen is Apocalypse Now. It is not apocalypse (revelation) in the sense of a religious ritual by a sectarian group of Muslims. Arbaeen as revelation is an unfolding of truth and courage so profound that Christian bishops prostrate before it and American Christian ministers (yours truly) return home and preach sermons about its transformative effects.

At first glance, Global Warming, 9/11, and Arbaeen are not related. But of course they are intimately connected. Global Warming negatively effects the poor first. It results from unbridled fossil fuel extraction that is linked to unsustainable economic growth that results in global resource war which is justified by demonizing the “Muslim enemy” that was created by the false flag of 9/11 who resists via Arbaeen.

Evil trembles before Arbaeen. American media cannot even report on it. But 15 million bear witness. Arbaeen (Apocalypse Now) is when the oppressed of the world lead the march toward justice.

Apocalypse Now (revelation) is a divine, redemptive event that uncovers the evil that is hell-bent on the popular version of apocalypse (destruction). Apocalypse Now is our summons to participate in our collective salvation.